The day has finally come. You have been there for me through ups and downs over these past 10 1/2 months. You were the path through which I could provide the little that I was able to through the first weeks of Hannah and Kate's lives. You kept me company in the wee hours of the night and morning. As much as I hated you at times, you were the one thing that I kept coming back to because it's the only way that I knew and sometimes it felt like it was the only thing that I could do for my girls. We met in the hospital. Little did I know the hundreds (maybe even thousands) of hours that we would spend together. You've accompanied me everywhere I've been the last 10 months. You have amazed me at how well you have kept up. You were worth every penny. You enabled me to shed pounds and get to a weight I haven't seen since high school. So as I say farewell, there are some bittersweet memories floating through my memory. Remember the late nights in the hospital when I could barely make it out of bed, remember the bottle after bottle that I filled as a new mother wondering if the flow would ever stop, remember those times when you simply sat with me as I cried wondering how in the world I could ever be a good mother to two precious little girls. But most of all, remember that we shall reunite someday in the not too distant but not so near future. I leap for my newfound independence with a slight sadness at finally having to pack you up and say goodbye. Here's to you my loyal friend.
Call me crazy, but maybe it's only something a mother who has had a baby born way too early with not even an option to breastfeed until weeks later will understand. While I am very excited about being able to wake up just minutes before the girls wake up and it's one less piece of "luggage" that I have to carry around, it's just a tad sad to put away something that was the only way I could provide for my daughters who were fighting to live.
For those who are considering buying a breastpump, I will highly recommend Medela. I have literally spent the last 10 1/2 months using and abusing my pump and it still works just as good as the day I bought it. I sincerely hope that the next go around I will not have to use it that much. So with that said...
The Dairy Bar is officially closed for business.